Reasonable Enough ?

Assalamualaikum,

Things went haywired yesterday but but, I'm so fine now. Seems like he off-ed his phone because it was out of battery. We literally HAD a small fight. Nothing serious really, just me crying because i was SO worried and I practically called him stupid tons of time. Bahahaha, okay.

I love how that he's back, we're back to what we always are, full of smiles and laughter :)

Are You Out There ?

It sucks missing you and not listening from you for a day.
I wanna hear your voice, see your sweet text on my phone like you used to but now, it seems something came up and i couldn't get the chance to know that you're even on the other side .
I just wanna know if you're fine, SO FINE that i could do anything to you when i see you.
It's killing me inside to know that you haven't replied me, haven't said a WORD after 4.28am .
Where are you? Where's my prince? That guy who always makes sparks fly?
Where's my good morning text and my gazillion kisses from you ? Where the HECK are you bie ??!!!
I feel like something's wrong, that something is not right at your place...
I'm so worried that i didn't pay much attention in class, i didn't sleep at all in class today even when i want to, I kept daydreaming and thinking about you, all the way bie, all the freaking way .
My hands are numb when i wrote this in a paper. I typed it back in here so you could read it too, maybe i should send it everywhere in the world to let you know how much I've been wanting to hear from you... It can't go on this way. My friends kept telling me to think positive but those positive thoughts ain't like you. I know you well enough . Were you out of credits? Did you met a fight with your granpa? Is your phone been taken away by him? Did you ran away? All this question in my head. They're leaving me silent for a long time that i just need to know if you're there. I might cry about this. I miss you :'(

Please, anyone, ANYONE, Tell me where he is... If anyone saw him in school ? ... Just that and i'm fine . PLEASE...

First Day

Where it Begins

Assalamualaikum,

Hello again. Apparently, today is the day before the FASTING starts. Aren't we excited? Well, I don't. Not when i'm craving for foods all the time. Since it's a respectful time we care to join the hunger in their everyday lifestyle. Possibly, since all we do is eat and we have not realize the people who doesn't get to eat and do what we do in our daily routine. What I'm excited about it getting to celebrate RAYA and do more good DEEDS. I've been a bad girl, VERY BAD, and i'm sure I'm not the only one bad around here. (you don't say)

Anyways, Happy Fasting everyone ! <3

After Story

There are no stories to tell when every stories ends with tears .

Sigh...

Assalamualaikum,

Today seems to be such a sad sad night for me. Apparently my boyfriend talked to this girl, umm yeah, and he asked her to accompany him and i notice that even though i was practically LONELY the whole day without him, i didn't ask for anybody's comfort. I just needed to know if he's there for me and all while, i was doing the same but he started whining to his friends about it. So the deal ended up a fail because he dm-ed me and called me. I did plan to answer but i couldn't because it was at a wrong time. Wanted to call back but i couldn't so after i did my arts thingy, i what's app him and well.... he didn't answer. I was really really, i mean REALLY, upset. I couldn't find any words to say. I did get quite sad when he asked a girl to accompany him but that doesn't mean i pushed him away for a reason i needed some space, it's because i was BUSY . I wanted to surprise him, i DID cancelled but i didn't literally mean it because i desperately needing to talk to him but he wasn't there. I wish he'd understand. Maybe i'm such an A** for not being there for you when you needed to but i just.... I just can't talk to you. Not with my mum 24/7 around me, looking at what i'm doing .

I wish, tonight is filled with your sweet kisses coz today will be the last night without my sister bothering me. I miss you, i need you, I..... I love you bie. So much . I'm sorry, so sorry .

Instead...

Assalamualaikum and Hello again !

So have you read my previous post? that long long ago post about "My Peterpan" Well, instead of becoming my Peterpan, he became my prince, my SWEET SWEET PRINCE and i can't deny how much i fell for him each day. We've started going out (not literally out) since 2nd of July this year, and I was in a fireworks moment. I didn't actually expect him to do as what I wanted to.... BUT he did, he knelt to the ground with his formal shirt and ask me to be HIS . Do you know how happy i was? I was SO happy that my heart leaped. He was the first to do that and he was almost the first for the things i always wanted in life instead of those cuddly things normal couple people do when they meet . I really hope things will go well this time.

I'm really grateful about his existence, after my bad, sad memories with my ex, He came to my rescue and gradually erase those feelings. He became someone really important to me that whenever his not around to call me or text me, my mind was so blurr that i started missing him like crazy . It's also nice that i'm not the only one feeling this way. Even when we're not talking, due to the deals we made which i can't tell you what, he can still put a smile on my face. It was sweet of him, i can't remember the last time a guy did this for me. He might be the first. I'm sure, no one ever did this for me at a time when i was lonely. I love him. I don't care how imperfect he is, he just takes my breath away . I just don't want things to change, HIM to change. I mean, someone important to me CHANGED before and it was never good, never ever was at all and to have seen him change too.... That's upsetting.

But i trust him, whatever is to happen, i trust him. I know he won't do things to hurt me. I hope he won't . Whatever it is, I'm happy now. I waited for a miracle to happen and i finally found my pixie dust . It changed everything. Keep smiling . Just do because you'll never know what is bound to happen .