An Adventure

Assalamualaikum,

I just got back from Johor in about 6++ pm just now and i'm incredibly happy because, it was a nice vacation before my exam that is in 2 weeks time. I know i shouldn't be roaming the internet but i swear, I'm just dead bored right now. I have this insomnia thing going on in the moment. SO I went to Singapore and went to UNIVERSAL STUDIO :D . Tell me about it. It's better than Australia's Movie world. so much stuff in Singapore you want to go some more hahah. Small country with big things is nice :)

I rode the HUMAN that is a SCARY SHIT ride. I mean, the speed is unpredictable. I've been pushing my safety gear to the front whenever it goes to the steep rails. Didn't get the chance to ride the others since we were in a rush trying to catch up with the theme park( i was scared actually....), also because we got a dinner gathering with my cousins/family in Singapore. It's been 2/3 years . How i miss them :'( and god, they are all grown up. Well i don't expect them to be that mature. I mean look at me, i don't look like i'm even growing up.

Met my lovely Grandma, Aunty Helen, Uncle Franky, Uncle Dustin, Kingsley, Ryan, Jeremy and Mei Mei (I'm not sure with the spelling though. Didn't actually ask her to spell her name for me lol) It was a day to remember .Whatever it is, i know i missed carnival today but spending time, bonding with family is quite an adventure so i guess, i'll end it here.

Ps. Didn't get to see my other uncle that is Uncle Sunny. He was busy with the model photography that he didnt have time :( well, i hope someday we would meet again soon.

Goodnight ^^

A Night with You pt.2

Assalamualaikum :)

It's 1am here. I should really be in bed but im here just to talk a bit about what i'm feeling right now. I'm a mess. At times i was happy and there'll be the downs that i very much dislike . Bipolar? -Yea, a name i prefer being called for. Not sure if what i'm doing right now is right for me . I'm only following where life takes me. Never did i agree doing what i do now. I'm only here because i have to, because i have the chance to make things right again. It's not like i want what i did . Not like moving in a direction to hate anybody, dishonor everybody . I still need the courage to do something for myself. Only i know. Only i do. My heart is lock after what had happen before. To had trust people was the last thing i want to do. Nothing seems to go my way but I'm happy, i have a nice life now. What i'm saying is, instead of focusing on someone, i'm only focusing on myself but it gets pretty lonely around here. I usually get those texts like those couples used to say when they are mad for each other and right now, i'm doing that to my girlfriends, not in a lesbian way but it's how we girls roll. It's not the same with my friends. Seriously. Now no messages, no nothing. Just, nothing . I miss that feeling when i do that with that someone. Desperate? -I won't call it that way. I'm just practically feeling empty. Love used to be my EVERYTHING and now, it's just something i crave for.

I'm not putting love as a priority but i'm just stating the point of my loneliness. I'm still fine to the extend of what you think and see of me everyday. I'm totally fine. Goodnight then :) Bye and Sweet Dreams

Experienced Pt.1

So a lot of people had been in this kind of relationships. Break ups, misunderstandings and etc etc . Well I've been there too and here are some pointers i could give you. It's based on what i think is right  and not compulsory for you to follow but it could help you in someway or another.

          1.Break ups (They just don't understand)

Well, i know break ups are the worse kind of pain you will have in years and days to come. Everything happens for a reason and sometimes, we just have to overcome that feelings and move on. There's a reason why an ex is an EX instead of an ex back to an ITEM again. You see, ex never always understand what you require in life and ended up leaving you and some ex's just want to live a new life with someone else. Don't blame them for not being the best for you or them to leave. They gave up on us and to begin with, we should have known things like this would happen to us some day. It's good that you trusted them and it's sweet of you to have still waiting but, it's no use doing so if they never appreciate you in the first place. As much as we want to, things just don't go our way. For me, Ex means Exist. They exist in our life because it was destined and they leave because it's a story that we're supposed to go through in a way we do not realize. They don't actually want this to happen and some would go all "I regret" in everything. It's bad to be so ashamed of ourselves to not had realized it but it's a lesson and the only thing we can do now is, START OVER and do your part and get it right . Screw past, we're in present. Learn from it. Nothing always go the way we wanted so instead of looking back, just walk ahead and flow around it. 

Ps. If you still plan on waiting then i suggest you best brace yourself to things that might surpass you. I'm afraid instead of holding on, you'll hate yourself and break down for attention of someone we might not want attention from. Annoyments i mean .

          2.Friendship (I trusted them)

Friendship is a golden ticket to me. I say so because they are what we need and are important. Gold is treasure and they are the treasure to our loneliness. Without it, what are we to come? Based on my view, people value friendship more than love because they could trust them and i bet, everyone got their heart broken by friendship because of broken trust. Some people just can't get enough of giving too much trust in someone they are close with and barely know and you thought they are the answer to all of your problems when they...... just DON'T ? We can't just tell of our feelings, secrets to just ANYBODY we KNOW . Think, do you even know them well to actually know they are trustful people and when you tell them, you just start to blame them in everything for the rumors and hectic stories about you. Well you are to be blame too. *slurps some cola* You don't always make great choices and you make mistakes too. Just forgive them and just stop trusting them for a sec and think for the better. If they are good enough to be a well known soul silencer then, go ahead, explode your inner everything. Some friends can't take any of your whines and we can't always expect them to listen and understand if they never even know how to. Stop expecting everything from your friends but if you have a problem, seek them when you can but not ALWAYS, if you actually do that always, that'll be a great way for you to get less attention now. Oh and HELLO, they are your friends, treat them like friends does, they aren't councellors. Thanks :)

Till then for now. Keep watch for pt. 2 if you need some tips :)

Periods ? Sure

Assalamualaikum and Hello boys and girls :)

Yesterday i was awfully sick but alhamdulillah, it wasn't severe because i had this headache that i wish wasn't there and a stomach pain so i had to go home from school early. I missed class and i also knew i had missed fun . Gosh. How would guys react to a pain like this? I bet they whine a lot, more than getting hit by a brick. Stupid? I know and reasons? They dislike pain as much as girls and this kind of pain is the reason to skip schools. I can be sure that there'll be 89% missing boys in school if that happens . Lol . No offense but we girls wish we could do that too and guys can easily miss school so we girls get NUTELLA :p

Never Did i Forget

This is kind of stupid but I'm still counting. Not sure why though but it's a memory so, happy memories ? Happy 1 year and 6 months Memories *blows my own candle* I'm dumb to had celebrate it on my own since we're going on our own direction. I'll take care of myself since you can't be there for me anymore. Au Revoir <3

Keen For Something

Assalamualaikum,

I'm back for more stories to tell. Things has been quiteeeeeee........ a turn ? I'm not sure how you would say it but i'm good. I know i am. So i have this one year younger crush and well, i'm very much interested in him. He got that traits i like and Gosh, hahah even though i'm writing, i'm just so speechless. I guess things just... Want to make you happy again ? I know god wants us to keep that smile on our faces and that is why, i've been patiently waiting for the right time :) I don't mind being with a boy younger than me, It's cute and well, i love kids :p

I'm not sure if he likes me back because my friend said that he was waiting for me to pass by and so he could keep watch from behind. His friends even nudged him when they saw me. It's practically embarrassing since some of his friends knew how i looked at him and maybe... how he looked at me too ? I hope one day i could get that chance to say hi because this is a love story that i would want to remember. Nothing attached, no words spoken before and just our eyes doing the talking. I want to write him a letter BUT, i'm quite shy. I mean what would his friends think of me?What would HE think of me? I'm older than him and he would probably think this is some childish thoughts i'm having writing a letter to a younger age. I'm going to fast *knocks head* I like him but letters? Phft ! sure xD hahahah

Tomorrow, let's do it tomorrow. Let's try. A letter with nothing but a HI :)

Hello There ,

Assalamualaikum,

It's been awhile since i blogged and i'm sorry . I'm not even sure about who's reading anyways. Well, my life has it's ups and downs right now. Moving on is never easy as you know so many things has been treasured by the the present yet i know it's not right to look back nor think about it. My best friends are trying to erase the memories that has been suffocating me to stop. I haven't gotten the hang of it but i know, i could do it if i try. I'm afraid of getting the same treatment from him. Even just a friend, i envy how he talks to other people. It was never like our conversations. I'm pretty sure no one would like to get that same heartache and the same reason why you broke off with them. What i'm doing is just to accept it, not complain much and just go with the flow. I shouldn't mind it anymore.

So my cat, Max just got injured yesterday. He was run over at the hips by my brother's car. It was an accident we didn't want to happen. So today we sent it to the vet. It seems like he'll be okay but he need to hospitalized for a few days. As an owner and a pet lover, YES i'm worried :s

Insyaallah, it will heal soon. I love you <3

Guess that's all from me. Oh and my school is having a carnival. Do come ! :D

Venue: SMK USJ 13

Date: 29th April 2012

Time: 8am till 3.30pm (I guess lol)

Take care :)