Late night calls

It's nice to get calls from someone again . Keeping me company at night to sleep . I like it and the thought of it is enough to make me fall asleep in an instant . Heuston was that guy . I'm not saying I like him or all that kind . I mean, he's a really good friend eventhough I just met him 3 days ago and started calling me mean names but he was overall nice to me . We planned to meet each other this Saturday at the wheels . Would love to see him for the first time and get that hug of his and go awkward since we barely know each other . We even Promise to Skype each other when he's in JB . I find it funny but sweet .

Finally have that late night calls. If this ends then, it's lonely nights again for me . Can't change facts but it'll be a lovely thing if it continues . Somehow, I feel like he's someone I need to remember in the future . I just sense that but I don't know, anything can happen . Lol Keep smiling :-)

It's alright not to be alright

Assalamualaikum,

Today i got see my old friend, SABRINA ! She's not old, but i mean, we've been friends for 10 years now. How sweet is that to still keep in contact. God knows how much i love being around her. She's the first one to introduce me to games online that is, Runescape and O2 Jam. I miss these games but we didn't actually played them when i went to her house. But still it was a moment of remembrance .

Actually, i wanted to talk about something else but i never seemed to find a way to talk about it. Maybe i wasn't really sure if it's a good idea to share my feelings publicly . Especially when there are people who reads my post. I guess, someday i get to settle this on my own.

Till then .

I'll be Alright

Assalamualaikum,

Yesteraday my dad popped out a topic about my best friends. Instead asking about Afina, he asked about Adz... yeah you get it. Apparently my dad doesnt know what's going on between us . He was like "What happen between you two? Dah lama tak dengar" I don't actually want to brag about him anymore. I used to brag a lot about him to my parents so they would like him and they actually did and when they knew i wasn't talking to him anymore, both of them grew silent and quickly change the topic. I'm sorry if my parents awaits news from him. all i did say to my parents was that "He found someone new to keep him company and that I was nothing more to him anymore" They understood and ask who's my new BEST Guy Friend now. Currently not stated because i wasn't sure if i need one but Azhar was becoming of a company when i need him.

Also at night i made friends with Heuston . He's a JB's kid. Yesterday we really had a conversation even though there was a moment of awkwardness but i don't mind. I made friends :-) We Viber for 2 hours and we were so darn sleepy but i thank him for no lonely nights today. I miss having phone calls at night. It keeps me company . I guess that's all for now. Bye then :-)

Just Another Memory to Picture

Assalamualaikum,

sorry for not updating anything lately. Was out of clue of what to write in here. Anyways, I went out with my friends today and we apparently had a blast time, i guess hahahaha. We didn't do much and this two best friends doesn't seem to be talking to each other much. Gosh, hahaha. Oh and i was fangirling about my prince all day to Azhar and messed with his phone and all. Apparently, Aiman and him are like TWINS. Notice this Azhar and Azahar thing, same voice, same face, I'm surprised and well, such a beezewooze about it. Wooo, hahaha.

Sorry for messing with the gay thing Aiman and Azhar as victim. Was bored while waiting for my mum. Hahahaha, Even so, it's been awhile since i write anything to Aiman. Like literally, a LOOOONG time .But we did WA yesterday about today's outing and it seems he already made plans with his friends. I'm sure, his outing is better than mine. Haikal made lame jokes that seems to be really ~~~~ hahahaha,

Whatever it is, today was a nice day. Alhamdulillah and enjoy your holidays. Goodnight ! <3

A friend like you

Assalamualaikum,

It's already late but I'm still so "rajin" to have still been blogging at this kind of time . So yeah, the title said it all. Syed has been there for me for I don't know how many times but clearly, it's a lot. He asked me to change my profile status on twitter, the "not to mention I love him" to unavailable. He wanted me to meet someone new and well, as you can see, I'm such a stubborn little baby, I didn't do as he say and changed a bit of my prof to not sound like I'm taken .

I don't actually want to meet new people, not just yet. Maybe because I'm not ready to see JUST anyone . Problem is that I'm not wanting to know someone new . I had enough rejecting people so I sounded like I'm taken when I'm not, just so I could avoid coupling . Good idea? I don't know. I mean I miss being loved and cared and all. Those night calls, those everyday love words, I actually wanted it back so badly that I don't want to look and desperately have it with anyone . I'm not desperate, no no, I don't search for boys, I don't want to and I have no intention to do so. It's dumb and a waste of time . Like they say "the best come to the ones who wait" and "let them come to you" wisdom words. Lovely :-) so that's it. Till then .

Economy

Assalamualaikum,

Today I totally screwed my economy exam. I actually read the whole chapter but I think I was lack of exercises. Whatever it is, if I failed, my mum would kill me . Sadly, that's my life . Tomorrow is add Maths and I'm not ready for logarithms . Wait, I mean everything :-( oh god, I'm so scared . I'll be panicking for a pass this time because I'm not sure if I can even do this .

Crushes

Assalamualaikum,

All hale the awesomeness. Hahaha, so i just realized that i'm silently falling for puppy and i don't know why. Yes, especially when we don't talk at all anymore. God, I'm so weird. This is happening to me all over again. I guess since my heart is single, it doesn't mind falling for guys easily, i mean literally, if i have a boyfriend, i just can't think of anyone else but him ya know? But now, yeah, since im in this status, i guess it's fine :-)

Hi Puppy, I got a crush on you but but, i don't want you so just let me love and adore you from a distance <3 Goodnight. I hope you'll have a dream that connects to mine ! #asif #iwish hahaha !

Dreaming of the past

Assalamualaikum,

Just woke up 50 mins ago and I'm still lying down on my bed . Practically because I straight away on my twitter and tweet stuff so I got lazy to stand . Anyways, I'm day dreaming right now . Thinking of a happy adventure with people I love and care so much . Neither less, it's a something I would like to have one day in this world I live in .

Yesterday I had a dream, a really sweet dream. I got to meet my ex and Instead of seeing him real life, at least in dreams I wouldn't have to feel anything . He appeared in my dream when I was at home . I didn't actually made the dreaming story, but I know how it goes . Even in dreams, we didn't have any connection anymore but he said something to me that made me feel good about myself and about himself too . I don't want to tell you guys what he actually said to me because the words were to precious to had been heard by someone else but I said something too, to him. It's the words I've been wanting to say for a very long time but i forgot what sadly.

Well what I can conclude that, he wasn't happy about his life much, he seems to love what he does but not what he's going through . He told me that in my dream. I'm not sure if it goes the same in real life but all I know is I prefer dreaming than reality. Right now, it seems like I only get to talk to him through dreams because I don't plan on talking to him in this world . Things had been so cruel to even think about it. Whatever he does, I hope it is what he wanted because he decided it on himself . Insyaallah, both of us live somewhere beyond our wildest imagination, happy.

Till then

Silk Feelings

Assalamualaikum,

It's Friday already and lol, I'm practically tweeting in school right now . Since I'm bored and well... ALONE, I rather spend my time doing this than walking around school like a dummy . Not saying people who walks alone are dummy. I'm just saying that it's not fun walking alone #justsayin . So overall, the exam wasn't that hard. Alhamdulillah, I got to answer them without any brain cracking . Though English 1 was .

Anyways, had a walk with syed today in school. Talking to him usually ease me because I could basically tell him everything and anything I want/need to without actually controlling my way of talking or rather what I talk about. I took his advice on something to make me keep smiling . I don't usually am a happy person but when I am, it's just beautiful. So yeah, thanks again for being there for me when I really need someone . I still hope he doesn't mind me whining because I whine a lot, used to . Seldom nowadays because I'm a free child now. Not from my parents but more to high school shits (pardon me)

Saw Puppy again today. STILL no progress . Sigh.... Thought of talking to him ended up not talking at all. Oh and gladly, yesterday had a little talk about studies with Nik. Not something I should brag about but it's been awhile since we last talk. Happy that he's doing fine :-)

Now.... I don't know what to blog about. I'm just talking about my days yet I still don't have the words. Nevermind that. Salam Jumaat and have a nice day ♥

Puppy

Assalamualaikum,

Just got a name for him, it's called PUPPY. Some cover up eh? hahaha xD all thanks to Amira's idea to call him that even though he looks like a cat. Whatever it is, he's always adorable. I wonder when will we ever come into contact again. Hmm... :-( really miss him. It was so much fun when we were both close. It was the beautiful days we had before it's gone. Well, one day, ONE FINE DAY, we will be able to do so again.

You're my kind of happy

Assalamualaikum,

Something happy turned out today in school. It's not that big of a deal but, I got to walk beside my long lost best friend jn. We didn't talk, no exchanged glances but god knows how much I miss walking beside him . He's growing tall, he looks healthy, happy too and gosh, I just..... Huh.... I would love to talk to him again. Maybe just a little cit chat like "how are you?" but it could be awkward. I'm still happy though. Not to mention glad that he turned out to be there when I wasn't looking.

Anyways, thanks Izaaz for the chocolate. I know I've won and it's like a prize to you but for me, it's a gift. Thank you so much. ♥ you never failed to be a friend in need and yes, I miss you. It's been awhile since we last talk. Well, I hope we get to hang out some more since we are best friends :'-) hahahah, okay. No touchy moments, thanks again Izaaz ! thanks ^^

Till then !

Rocketship

Assalamualaikum,

And welcome back for more blogging . I'm not quite sure about who's reading this . Not sure what's even interesting about my post but whatever it is, thanks for reading :-)

So yeah, i'm happy. I don't know why but I am. I'm feeling better and better everyday. They told me what I should do and I actually followed it . I learned to not care so much. I'm such a worrywart and god knows how my curiosity feels me in great doubt. No matter, because I'm fine now, I'm living happily. Hehehe :-D happy girl is happy. Look on the bright side, I don't need to be worried about heartaches anymore .

Furthermore, seems like my whole 2 years in high school starting this year as a single :-) it's not bad, it's awesome . I wouldn't have to worry about my mum checking up my phone . Not until I'm in college or so. Possibilities of finding a future husband in that time . Finding someone when you're working is a tough matter plus, I'm not really that sociable with people. Not with strangers though.

I've settled my plan for the future. Seems like finding someone from high school won't come true afterall, but that doesn't mean it can't happen, maybe because I dont need anyone at this time and age. Tawakal and pray for a good future. That's what I need to do because in that way, god will listen to my prayers and knows what's best for my life. Insyaallah, I'll be smiling till then :'-) Amin .

Best friends

Assalamualaikum,

So today's post will show how I miss my long lost best friend which I actually hurt before and god knows how much i crave for a normal conversation With him again.

Dear you, I know I was a jerk, I know how dumb I am to ask you out before . We both had been good friends until that day i gave you my last hug. I remember why I gave it you, what I said before we bid farewell, how you're so confused when i said "for luck" and how I didn't properly said I still need you. Because of that, everyday had been so cruel. You were still smiling after we parted and we haven't talked since except "hi" . We used to MSN a lot, I missed that. I missed everything about you. If only you knew how I always had a thought of you whenever you passed by, you'd know how I feel. You're smiles is why I'm still holding on to myself. Best friends never last but I beg to differ. I ruined a relationship and now, i wish to fix the attachments we once had. I never meant to hurt you, I had always loved you but I wonder why it wasn't more than that. I wonder why you weren't someone I want so badly. Maybe because "love was blind" to me but god knows how much i miss you. Really. I swear. I hope you knew. I hope we could be like old times. You're like a little brother to me . I miss you smiling for me . I miss how we joke around and your shy questions. I miss that. I miss that moment .

Happy Mother's Day !

Assalamualaikum,

I would like to wish my beautiful mum a day of appreciation as her child a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY :-) thanks for everything you've done for me, even when I'm such a rebel and often have fights with you but you will always be my mum thus, I never had the urge to hate you but only to love and care you more .

This year is another year we're celebrating a token of graditute as being a child. You had always brought the best of me even when I'm at my worse. We fought like crazy this year and made you cry like mad because of my offensive words that I know you've done wrong but know that you weren't at fault because you're doing your job as a mum. I love you and your actions are well played to your stage. I respect you even so. What can I do without you ? :'-) live well and happy. I'm always here for you till the end

Sincerely, your daughter, Sarah Adriana ♥

Blogger for iPhone

Assalamualaikum,

I just downloaded the blogger app for my phone and well, this could be easy to update if I'm lazy to actually get on my computer . Today's test that are BM and BI were... fine, I just don't have enough time to re check anything. That's the thing I'm worried about. I don't know how I would score this mid term, it seems that without my watch, I just can manage time, RIGHT. Like wise, time is precious ~

To not waste any of yours, keep studying heart and keep smiling :-)

Sigh...

I finally heard the truth from Syed, it was only just a game. His friends were toying me using him even though he was nice enough to actually wanting to tell me. I don't blame him for doing so. It's not like i literally want him to be my boyfriend. I did say that before :-) So I'm glad Syed told me sooner before i actually fell in love with him. Agh... hahaha . I'm grateful ^^ and gladly i'll say, NO HEARTBREAKS occur . Alhamdulillah. So yeah, Syed told me to stop liking him so i should because i mean, his words is whom i can only trust right now. He never betrayed me before so he's a HERO. Thanks for everything and also to Hazie for finding this out :')

Kinda

Assalamualaikum,

Tomorrow's exam !! okay, not trying to pressure any of you guys. Goodluck By the way :-) may the knowledge be ever in your favor. Not to mention study Heart and Smart.

So mostly you guys don't understand why i say Heart instead of Hard. WELL, i created this word so that people would learn to study from the heart instead of forcefully needing to do so and that what you read will go into your brain and function well for exam :-) Understand? Good ^^

Just now in school, i barely seen him the whole day. I kinda miss him but I'm glad at the end of the day i got to see him clearly when school was over. He was RIGHT behind me. Lol, still no hello but who cares right? at least i got to see him smile. ^^ <3

Happy girl is happy :-)

Meaningless Post

Twinkle twinkle little stars, how i wonder what you are
Up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle twinkle little stars, how i wonder what you are :-)

If the world when speechless, I don't mind still believing in fairytales, i don't mind wanting to be happy and i don't mind following my heart, telling me to keep on wishing and hoping for a dream come true. I'm fine, even when i can't feel belong in someone's heart, treating me like i'm right, like i'm one of a kind and not someone's usable toy. I'm fine, I always do.. I just want my dreams to come true. I just want you.

Hopefully

Assalamualaikum,

Another day to talk about. Finally, I mean, FINALLY, i passed his class. It's a success :-) his friends was really excited when i first walk up the stairs. He was like "Haikal kat kelas" then he looks left and right and run to his classroom shouting "HAAAAAAAAAIKAAAAAAAAAL!!!" hahahaha, it was uber funny but what's not funny is that Syed said something that put my hopes down. I understand that it won't but i just wish it will (Ignore this phrase) Right now, i'm just hoping for the best and well, pray that it won't fade. Amin ^^

So hey there crush, If all fails, you're still an admirable person. Wish you well in the mere future. Life is beautiful if we open our hearts to realize that the journey is never that far. Keep smiling :-)

In Love ?

Assalamualaikum,

Guess what? I just sent him the letter, of course not directly gave it to him, i sent my friend to do so because well, i'm too shy. Especially when his friends actually read it.  I'm so embarrass, oh god.  hahaha , fingers crossed, i hope he replies it back. :-) because alhamdulillah that he actually smiled really really widely for it. It made my heart pound when someone smiled that beautifully for one little thing i did even from a far. Yes, I'm saying he has the most beautiful smile that i ever seen. I'm mindblowned. Just Wow-ed. Am i in love or something because i can't put him away from my mind? That feeling of falling in love is just, amazing. I miss this and i'm so grateful for this feeling to actually come back to me after months of suffering. Ya Allah, hahah so happy.

Bersyukur lah Sarah, finally someone is finally giving me that beautiful butterflies in my belly and non-stop heartbeats again. Happy girl is happy. I hope that this is Allah's way of saying i still have hope to smile even when i lose a dime in my hand, a new dime is made to make me shine brightly again because when the moon fades, it will always go back to its original form one day. Alhamdulillah. That's all for now. :-) Keep smiling ! xoxoxo

Oh dear .

Assalamualaikum,

Basically, I just blocked a friend of mine... AGAIN. This time is because an obsessive feeling from someone I'm less interested with. Not saying i dislike him, i mean he's a friend of mine and i don't have that feeling towards him but he, he just don't get it and it gets annoying because he keeps saying "I like you" "I miss you" and all. Syed told me to just block him and i did but i feel bad though. I'm not a blocker and i would eventually unblock him someday. Gaaah ! I'm not a fan of cruel things. Nope, not a fan .

Anyways, I'm sorry if i did that to you, I'm doing this because i want you to stop liking me. It's been 2 years and you got to stop feeling that way and being so desperate to actually have a girlfriend. You'll have your time, not now but I'm sure someone would want you in the future. I'm sure but no, it's not me. So please understand.

Amilia Rahamad

Heyya Classmate :) HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY !!!! 

I know we barely talk in class but you have the prettiest smiles I've ever seen and you always seem to glow :) Not sure how i could explain that but surely, you'd understand what it means ^^ Be happy always, May god bless you with things in need in your life. Study Heart and Smart. Cheerios Beautiful ! :D

Living On My Own

I practically think that maybe i'm forcing myself to do things that it can barely do again. I'm upset about it. I cried myself to sleep in the afternoon just now. Funny how i was actually talking to my bolster, releasing everything i feel with it. I hugged it, used it to wipe my tears and the ears to all of my problems. I'm sorry dear Bolster, you've been with me for 15 years and to confess everything i feel with you, I feel good :') I love you <3

I'm starting to get lonely again. I can't keep feeling this way. I tried to find new things to actually keep myself company but, i just feel that, I'm overdoing stuff . My heart needs a rest, my brain needs a time out and my life just needs a little peace of heaven . I remember why i used to be so alone again, it was because it was night, everyone is asleep and half dead and I'm up with Insomnia . I really wish someone would actually tell me, I'm not alone and they'll be there for me till i fell asleep but that's never gonna happen. Not when everybody are busy with their own life. Like what she said "The world doesn't revolve around you alone" . Sadly, it's true . 

Someday, I wish a human appears to come to my savior . 

Notice Me

Assalamualaikum :)

This pretty much explains everything i feel right now . ^^

Notice me <-- Listen here :)

Lyrics

VERSE: I try to find the words when you walk by (walk by) Words just can't explain the way I feel (I feel) inside My friends keep sayin you're untouchable And I can't help feeling invisible CHORUS: I'd do anything to catch your eye So you could see me in a different light Tell me what's it gonna take cause I wish you would notice me If you could only give me just one chance I could be the one and here I am What's it gonna take to understand Wish you would notice me Notice, notice, notice me Notice, notice, notice me VERSE: You've got a light that never seems to fade I'm drawn to you and I can't look away We come from different places, girl I know, mmmm But two worlds collided could be beautiful CHORUS: I'd do anything to catch your eye So you could see me in a different light Tell me what's it gonna take cause I wish you would notice me If you could only give me just one chance I could be the one and here I am What's it gonna take to understand -cut off here- BRIDGE: I wonder if you know how amazing you are You leave me breathless You didn't even try but you've stolen my and I don't want it back I don't want it back CHORUS: I'd do anything to catch your eye So you could see me in a different light Tell me what's it gonna take cause I wish you would notice me If you could only give me just one chance

Confession

Assalamualaikum,

Hello Readers. The title says that i actually had an emotional talk to one of my friend. I told her what i've been feeling and she's the only one who knew what i wanted but she doesn't basically knows everything though. I mean, messing up in life is just a study to me, the real exam is the breakthrough . I'm taking this as something I'm going to learn instead of something that i should be sad about .It's dumb if you take it that way. I'm not that lifeless to actually put sadness in life. Not anymore. Been there, done that. It was a picture that hurts me the most and i'm not going to look back this time . It's when people, will no longer have the chance to actually turn back time anymore . I'm 95% over the past and now awaiting for the 5% to actually GO. I pray for a good future and the Al-Mighty to do me good in life. What i am now, is what i should correct. A bit pun a bit la, as long as i'm happy and faith is in my hand. I hope this way, I'm no longer thinking of what's gone. Amin.

Cheerio ! ~

Katrina Iman

HAPPY SWEET16 BIRTHDAY :D


Hello there :) Hope you're reading this. We might not have hung out, talk that much or actually bump to each other purposely to actually look and say Hello but but, You're existence is much appreciated :) You're growing prettier each day, I'm sure you're boyfriend would agree with me. Whatever you do, never forget the place you once belong because what you do, you got to do it good. Lots of Love <3 Keep Smiling, never lose them, Know that your teeth is beautiful and so does your personality ^^ Sincerely Sarah :)

I've been meaning to Say

Assalamualaikum,

Today is just another regular failure in school. I didn't get to say hi to him nor see him the WHOLE day, except the part when i got in from school. Not sure what to do but my heart beat really fast whenever he's near me. I could barely breathe. It's stupid since, it's not like we have any connection but god knows how nervous i am around him .

So tomorrow i need to pass up my art project. I don't want to drop my arts even when i DO have the most Ignorant teacher for that. I mean dude, I tried to draw, what makes you think it looks like a freaking worm. I never did something that awful before. If you were to judge my drawing, let me see yours. It's not like it's a perfectionist . Phft ! Arts teacher. High Expectation. I'm not a professional artist, try to be at least easy on us students -.-

I'll post more when i have something to say. Till then :)

1 May

Assalamualaikum May, People :)

It's 1st May. Probably a new start for me to try and actually say hello to him. I mean rather than not do anything, that's just.... stupid . Phft. Like Syed said "Wimp" . I'm really shy, embarrass actually, around him. Can't do anything in focus when he's on my mind 24/7 . Gosh. I really like him but, i just, i don't know. I don't feel like having him as my boyfriend. Maybe because I'm not ready to have one immediately. I need to gradually get over what has been haunting me and just, look forward. I've moved 80% from my past and god knows how hard am i trying to remove the other 20%. Most of all, i should get to know him better, go out with him a few times to know that he would be the right guy but i'm sure, RIGHT isn't always there because there's always the WRONG guy. Come on, almost everyone agrees with that. Thought he was right and then you found out he's wrong . Phft, life . So enjoy your  month, study heart and smart for exams and well, keep smiling :)