My Up Goal

STAY SINGLE and if that doesn't work. I'll dare myself to not eat choco for a month. If that doesn't work too, i'll..... do nothing xD

Meow Meow !!

This is a really cute kitty and i'm gonna have it soon but not this one. The one i'm buying looks exactly like this but dark gray and while spot on its face down to the body :3 Buying it at RM1200 yay ! It's a rag doll plus pedigree breed. Really nice :D woooh ! can't wait !

If we Sail the ocean, Let it not sink The ship

Assalamualaikum,

I didn't receive anything from him today, I guess it was meant to happen. It'll go on till tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow right? I mean right now, it's where we should sail apart and forget about us but i don't know. I don't want things to change. Right now, there are guys chasing me and i act like nothing happen so they wouldn't ask me out. I'm not saying that i'm this type of girl who would be proud that there are still guys showing up to me but truth is i don't care. I only have eyes for one guy and it's not wrong for me to stick to it and even if he doesn't care i exist, waiting for him to realize is what i do best. Yea i know, WAITING SUCKS. My friends, they were like, "SARAH, that's a waste of time. There are million of guys looking for you and you're lucky that they are still there, in front of you door, waiting for you too." I can't deny it because it's true so i sat in my room thinking so hard while tweeting like a boss like nothing happen.

In the morning after i woke up like this sleeping beauty waiting for a prince charming to come rescue me from this cruel world..... okay no hahah , so i met this guy i call a kid :P name Adam Ariff. He's nice :) just like a KID xD lol ok, i'm just messing around. We just met today on twitter and yeah, we actually became this close friends. How awesome is that? lol ok no. Though it's funny how he should be calling me kakak kaaaaan? :P but no, he kan dah besar, 14 years old. Matang la tu. nak sangat lesen hahah . SO yea, he practically made my day from being lonely. I'm happy. For the people who thinks i'm actually targeting him, no, i'm not. I want the people to look at the world about what they are missing rather than being with a girl like me because they need it more than i do :) I'm trying to clear misunderstanding and no, my ex didn't cheat on me, i was actually afraid of being cheated one day. It's a fear i got from one of my 10 ex's. I don't want to tell what happen so i hope you readers can flashback my memory and make your own story out of it, make it like my life being untold and people recovering those memories.

People say that I'm a strong girl, still standing with boy's after one by one breaking my heart but i say, i'm still weak. Doubting people when i don't know and giving up half way. I'm trying to change that though. They wanted me to make my own decision, some were asking me to stop this stupid act, acting like i'm strong and all but the truth is, i wasn't acting, i was being considerate. What if my partner doesn't want us to stop in the first place? What if he still wants me but i pushed him away? It'll be a mistake right? but i have my reasons so i'll put it through somehow. I wanted my high school love to last, maybe until marriage but that wouldn't go on because i know my partner would have gone tired of me someday.

The End

Assalamualaikum,

Hello guys :) I finally broke up with my boyfriend and yes, i'm sad, really sad. I cried, a bit though but i put myself up together. He liked someone else and i couldn't take it anymore. Being cheated is the last thing i want from him. This is what it calls by THAT"S IT. Over and gone. I don't want to be treated the same. 1 year and 3 months. I will always remember and i wouldn't want to celebrate the pain in February. Things are a bit awkward but we're sticking to JUST friends. It's for the best. He's even happy about being single and away from me. Well truth be told right, he wanted this from the start.

Sad girl is sad but i'm gonna change the fact that this year, is the year of backing up from all of those pain. It'll be a miracle if he wants me back but i don't know, he doesn't seem to want me back. I'll stick to single and not try to mingle anyone.

Suddenly I realize...

Assalamualaikum,

Today's topic is about my best friend who actually start treating me like a mortal enemy. I'm quite clueless to what's going on here, she started talking bad about me, just like last year. I have no idea why. I mean like, i don't care what you want to do, you want to talk to guys, well it's not my problem to stop you but it's just not like you to talk around asking questions about what's going on. You change from that innocent girl to this, I don't know whom anymore. More people are changing day by day and for me, i'm not ready to take that step because changing is not my thing. I love the originality and now i'm stuck to reality where things don't last. FRIENDSHIP don't last. It's sad when i care for what you're doing and making people offended is wrong. I mean totally :( I miss the old you where you'll be there for me and i know you're tired of my problems but you don't need to run around telling people about what is what about me because only you know and that's what make you special to me. Knowing what i am and what i do.

I don't want to fight, yes i did talk about you behind your back and it's not like i'm saying anything bad, i was asking around about why you became THIS. I never want to judge you. I really care for you and that's why i don't want to have this problems around. I actually don't know if you were tweeting about me but just to make sure, you treated me like a stranger now. So i realized. Yes, i'm offended and i don't know if you're happy about it but please la, stop this immature act where you talk behind one's back. You know i'm here, you can just speak out what's going on. Last time, you know nothing about what's going on about me and you started spreading bad things about me to people. It's just stupid you, STUPID. I thought you would understand it now but it seems like you're doing it again. I don't know what's happening here anymore.

Smiles !

Assalamualaikum,

please don't mind this post. I'm actually excited for no reason. I'm happy happy happy and you know it ;) haha Gosh, i miss this feelings. It's been long gone since EVER. Ararararararar! maybe i should vlog, oh wait, i usually ran out of words when i vlog. I think it's because i'm talking to a camera and not a person .__.

ANYWAYS, Happy Birthday MUMMY !!! <3 Lots of love and care. You've been through my ups and downs for the whole 15 years and i appericiate your motherly effort :') Can't believe i'll got through that soon. OMG, i'm already talking about being a mother ahahaha. Guess excitement do hits people hard

Alex watson

Pixie Lott - Broken Arrow

but i'm here for Alex ;) ahaha but the song too lol

OMGee

Look, i made a header for my blog :B well actually it was last year's creation. The favicon too :)

Friday The 13th

Assalamualaikum,

Woo, so i randomly pick someone to stalk on today's date :) that is.... jeng jeng jeng ! Arif Danial <--- yes , it's the annoying ex of mine. Scrolled down in my phonebook and found his name so i just chose him instead of my own boyfriend, because it'll turn out to be boring. He never actually gets my fun except my friends. It's offensive but i get the point, he's someone who lost himself from me. As we actually grew apart, i intend to move forward slowly like what i said in the previous post. I'm overcoming my past that would never return. I prefer taking time instead of rushing myself to the things that won't move. I don't intend to change myself unlike he did because i prefer being myself rather be someone else. Well i do need to change some things in me like doing religious things. I'm not that religious but i do know a lot about my religion. Sometimes, i do it, sometimes i don't. My schedule isn't that precise but i'm trying.

At school, everyone was pressuring me about me and boyfriend. I was sad, jealous, alone the whole time since my friends were all with their lovers. Argh, so jealousy hits me hard D: i get it. Man, i want my 2010 life back. Hit rewind and change my love life to be single with no love feelings.

Dear Friday, bring back thursday, wednesday(baskin robin), tuesday, monday, sunday and saturday back, rewind rewind rewind .

I want my life back to the way it was without this foolish mistakes i made in the past. I miss what i had till it's gone .

I call this a Hurricane and they were the one in it

Assalamualaikum,

Yesterday was a mess. I just don't get it. What's going on or why he's doing this to me. My friends told me to settle things out and talk to him about it but every time i tried to do it, he'll go all moody and runs away. There's no way i could do that if it's ending up like this. That's why i told my friends to talk to him about it but when i think again, they have nothing to do with this so i took it back. I just don't know what to do now. There's so many question i would want to ask like

1. Why don't you ever put smiley on my text but with others ada?
2. You treat girl's lagi baik daripada i, why?
3. In your eyes, am i just a friend?
4. Do you hate me that much to want to be with me?
5. I was there, right behind you and yet, no hi, why?
6. You said you would walk with me, recess with me or be with me at school sometimes, are they all lies now?
7. Are your friends more important than me to want to hang out with me because you see them a whole lot more than me but you're giving me the 30% care while you friends are 70% ?

There's more to it but these are the main. I'm going with the flow but if he's going to keep doing this to me, lebih baik tak payah couple. I'm sick and tired with how he's treating me. All my friends, Amira, Farisa, Wye Kit, Sakthivel, Balqish and others have the same thought, telling me to break up but i keep denying it. This time i won't. I'm not making any fights anymore but you were the one treating me like a wooden rock. I dah FED UP. You've change and i don't. I don't want to be what you want me to be. I want to be myself, do jokes again, do what i want again. You never support in what i do but i did to you. If we did break up, stop saying we could be friends because we won't, EVER. I don't want to because it will never be the same anymore unless i totally forget about you. Well maybe im not that cruel not to say anything but...

I'm trying to move on ~

Next door making a fuss?

Assalamualaikum,

Back for more blogging since i woke up early today. As i've heard from my friend, USJ 12 "PARENTS" are making a fuss about the language the students would be using. I mean, i would too disagree about changing the subjects in BM. Probably the government was too stupid to think about what we would be learning in college or university. If i would say so myself, learning in dwibahasa would be good, furthermore, without bringing both bm and english language for Maths and science everyday, and just use speaking skills rather than reading skills. It's a burden to us. Thank god the form 4's and 5's are maintaining english in my school (USJ 13) . Even with 2 languages books recieved, we were only to bring english. For the form 1's, i pity them since my sister is taking subjects in BM. She's a really slow learner, with the language changes, it'll mess up her studies.

Okay so, Adzim just joined my class that is the class he didn't want to be in, in the first place. I don't want him in my class anyways. I know it's a happy thing to be happy about but he's not even treating me special so why am i suppose to be happy? With him doing that to me it's so frustrating. I couldn't whine to the teachers about it so i'mma just stay silent and ignore his presence and just study what i can.

That's the news i have for today :)

later !

Meet Runa

Assalamualaikum,

This is runa ! His real name if i remember is Ilijaal Gustave :) I met him in Eden Eternal, an Aeria Game's game. I needed help with a dungeon quest and he was the one who helped me. He was very nice, he even taught me some moves. We got pretty close until we were falling hard for each other, but he was the one who was more onto me. After a month have passed, I lose that feelings for him but he didn't. I wish i could tell him that he shouldn't take things so seriously since we are living far but somehow he did. I only know how to play along because i didn't want to hurt him, he was a precious friend of mine.

We actually Skype everyday but he always sends me late replies and it get really annoying to have to wait. Yes, my true colors is that i always hate being patient. I only be patient in some things that's really important to me.

So that's it for today :)

Till then

I'm appreciating every last day

Assalamualaikum everyone,

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!

So yes, i'm smiling, maybe it hits me, maybe this year it'll turn out to be better than last year and maybe he'll learn to value this feelings of mine :') I want to see magic of this year, i'm changing for the better. It might not come fast but I AM changing, Literally <3

My New Year Playlist is listening to

• Feint (will be listening tons of time)
• Insan3Lik3 (Once)
• Dave Days (some)
• Demi Lovato (a couple)
• Skrillex (may be listening)
• Deadmau5 (may be listening)

and more :3 Not to mention i keep replaying it.

Anyways, He's still on his shift, working hard for his skateboard, though i'm a bit scared of his wild acts because he's not afraid of getting injured .___. Practically, i'd stop him but no, he's enjoying every moment of his happy days with the things he love so I support him ^^

I knew he'd still treat me like this nobody even on the Eve of new year. Sometimes, i don't know if he's being faithful you see? Now i'm not caring about this anymore. If he's treating me that way, i'd would do the same to him. If he's being sweet, then i would too. This is my New Year plans so i won't cry every night with the same dilemma. I rather get hurt physically rather than feelings. It's torture :/

Hope you guys have a wonderful Year :)

Lots of love Sarah <3