20120921
Feel so alone here
I really miss him, so much i just can't stand not checking up my phone every minute of my life to see if he's on, or not on. God knows how much i want to hear his voice, kissing up my ears every time we call each other up. I know it's only for 2 days but I can't help it, I can't even live not talking to you for an hour. I want you home right now. Singapore is hard to reach. It's further from me, YOU're further than me . I miss you Heuston. Really really miss you . *sobs sobs* This is depressing but i really wish you had tons of fun but i hope I'm still in your mind as what you are in mine . Take care .
Maroon 5 and The cab
Assalamualaikum,
Guess what? I went for my first concert !!!!! WOOOO *claps claps* It was awesome even though it was really exhausting, it was worth every complications :D
I went with Afina. She went and pick me up from my house to Stadium Shah Alam. We waited in line and there was like a few of them when we were since we came in about 3+ pm. We didn't know when the gate was going to open so we did several stuff to keep us alive lol. It wasn't much and then suddenly, more and more people are there and they were moving forward, so i stood up and get in positions . We had to stand so long that i was searching for water. I was dehydrated by the crowds and alhamdulillah, there was a man selling some can drinks, walking pass the lines to promote it. I bought some apparently, i didn't want to die in there when I'm going to scream and shout like a maniac when I'm in .
We were still standing when we entered the concert since everyone was pushing and squeezing to get to the nearest stage. We were about 1 metre away from it and people keep coming in and just asdfghjkl . Whatever it is, It started at 9pm and The Cab (the opening act) was AWESOME . I didn't know much about their songs but i only know Bad (Afina told me to listen to it before the concert and so i did and apparently, the song was performed hahaha) and La La (A song that Aizi told me to perform for Talent time but failed to do so because i couldn't memorize the lyrics and i only know the song for a day) . After that, we waited in about 40 minutes for Maroon 5. They were rocking the stage that night and Adam was so hot ! I mean literally, i was sweating, he was sweating and everybody just SWEAT. All of the song was a song that i know except 2/3 of them . I was just dancing to it. I thought that they would sing all of the overexposed album song that night but actually, they sang all of his top rating song in my guess since he sang his old songs too. I love that Daylight was his favourite song and that i didn't waste my time the other night, listening to his new album over and over again . I took a couple of pictures for remembrance so I'mma show you how he looks like and how close i was there with him ;)
I'm sorry that there is none of The Cab's pictures, was actually enjoying the concert so i didn't bring out my phone . The lead singer is freaking cute so yeah, i kind got lost in the eyes :p That 7 hours of standing was all worth the pain . I wish i could turn back time and replay everything .
Guess what? I went for my first concert !!!!! WOOOO *claps claps* It was awesome even though it was really exhausting, it was worth every complications :D
I went with Afina. She went and pick me up from my house to Stadium Shah Alam. We waited in line and there was like a few of them when we were since we came in about 3+ pm. We didn't know when the gate was going to open so we did several stuff to keep us alive lol. It wasn't much and then suddenly, more and more people are there and they were moving forward, so i stood up and get in positions . We had to stand so long that i was searching for water. I was dehydrated by the crowds and alhamdulillah, there was a man selling some can drinks, walking pass the lines to promote it. I bought some apparently, i didn't want to die in there when I'm going to scream and shout like a maniac when I'm in .
We were still standing when we entered the concert since everyone was pushing and squeezing to get to the nearest stage. We were about 1 metre away from it and people keep coming in and just asdfghjkl . Whatever it is, It started at 9pm and The Cab (the opening act) was AWESOME . I didn't know much about their songs but i only know Bad (Afina told me to listen to it before the concert and so i did and apparently, the song was performed hahaha) and La La (A song that Aizi told me to perform for Talent time but failed to do so because i couldn't memorize the lyrics and i only know the song for a day) . After that, we waited in about 40 minutes for Maroon 5. They were rocking the stage that night and Adam was so hot ! I mean literally, i was sweating, he was sweating and everybody just SWEAT. All of the song was a song that i know except 2/3 of them . I was just dancing to it. I thought that they would sing all of the overexposed album song that night but actually, they sang all of his top rating song in my guess since he sang his old songs too. I love that Daylight was his favourite song and that i didn't waste my time the other night, listening to his new album over and over again . I took a couple of pictures for remembrance so I'mma show you how he looks like and how close i was there with him ;)
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| This is how close i am with the stage ! |
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| Adam Levine :) |
20120919
It's like OCEANS
Assalamualaikum,
Something rather twisted happened.
Apparently, I got my overseas chocolate by Adzim from Labuan today . I wonder if he still remembers my crave for those chocolates since it was my utmost favourite and i would ask him to bring back some whenever he got back from Labuan . Well that was when we were actually attached but now, no longer. Shared a big bar of it with Amira and Haikal since he couldn't buy each one, ONE. I mean i totally understand. I do wish that bar was all mine but my mum told me to share things with people and that it's not good to be greedy so, alhamdulillah, i did and with an open heart, i shared . He kept saying that my boyfriend was funny just because he asked him for an advice . lol
The sad part of a happy day was that my boyfriend went from the happy mode to a sad one. I couldn't possibly let it happen that i budge him to tell me and sadly, it was because of me. Because he couldn't be any of the first in my life and that my ex's are revolving around me whenever i do whatever . I felt really guilty that i was going to cry myself in school but i held back and talked to him. He told me before that he would want to be the last and i just felt a sudden shock when he started saying that he would never be the first and get down in the dumps . I questioned myself of why he started saying like he was never good enough when i said it's a normal thing for me to cry and get depressed at times . I know I'm so emotional in things that saddens me but that's not the problem, he's amazing, how bad he is at things, he still is and i love him to every bit. Is that not enough to explain ? To trust me ? Have i ever lied ? I don't understand how could such things bother him but somehow, i understand what pain he's going through. I would feel insecure myself. If i was right beside him, i would caress his cheeks and hug him, let all of my love flow in his ears with the words i've been dying to say right at it and show him what it means to be needed because i need him, always . That moment felt like I was right about to lose him, like he was trying to make me run but didn't know how to say it, like a child running from a scream, that i needed to save him and catch him but wouldn't make it . I was afraid in fact . I couldn't let someone i care so much slip away from my fingers again . I know he's scared, he had always been . Right now, i couldn't do anything . I'm sorry .
Life was never fair so i decided to put my faith in Allah to at least make a moment which will last forever and that i pray for one day, we will journey through with alhamdulillah . Amin .
Something rather twisted happened.
Apparently, I got my overseas chocolate by Adzim from Labuan today . I wonder if he still remembers my crave for those chocolates since it was my utmost favourite and i would ask him to bring back some whenever he got back from Labuan . Well that was when we were actually attached but now, no longer. Shared a big bar of it with Amira and Haikal since he couldn't buy each one, ONE. I mean i totally understand. I do wish that bar was all mine but my mum told me to share things with people and that it's not good to be greedy so, alhamdulillah, i did and with an open heart, i shared . He kept saying that my boyfriend was funny just because he asked him for an advice . lol
The sad part of a happy day was that my boyfriend went from the happy mode to a sad one. I couldn't possibly let it happen that i budge him to tell me and sadly, it was because of me. Because he couldn't be any of the first in my life and that my ex's are revolving around me whenever i do whatever . I felt really guilty that i was going to cry myself in school but i held back and talked to him. He told me before that he would want to be the last and i just felt a sudden shock when he started saying that he would never be the first and get down in the dumps . I questioned myself of why he started saying like he was never good enough when i said it's a normal thing for me to cry and get depressed at times . I know I'm so emotional in things that saddens me but that's not the problem, he's amazing, how bad he is at things, he still is and i love him to every bit. Is that not enough to explain ? To trust me ? Have i ever lied ? I don't understand how could such things bother him but somehow, i understand what pain he's going through. I would feel insecure myself. If i was right beside him, i would caress his cheeks and hug him, let all of my love flow in his ears with the words i've been dying to say right at it and show him what it means to be needed because i need him, always . That moment felt like I was right about to lose him, like he was trying to make me run but didn't know how to say it, like a child running from a scream, that i needed to save him and catch him but wouldn't make it . I was afraid in fact . I couldn't let someone i care so much slip away from my fingers again . I know he's scared, he had always been . Right now, i couldn't do anything . I'm sorry .
Life was never fair so i decided to put my faith in Allah to at least make a moment which will last forever and that i pray for one day, we will journey through with alhamdulillah . Amin .
20120916
Oovoo Time Part 3
This was today's conversation and we were uniting our Bolster on Oovoo since i finally got the things that i should be with since 4 days ago :)
Keep smiling !
Oovoo Time part 2
It was an emotional night last night . we were both explaining things, and we both ended up feeling mood less but we made up. It wasn't a fight, we just had a heart to heart talk . I think, well that's base on my thoughts .
Sorry for looking so weird, because this was taken when we were having a conversation. The second pic was when he finded out i was taking a picture .
20120915
Got it !
Assalamualaikum,
I finally got my package ! I'm so happy !
His letter, his busuk, his picture, his name tag, his proposal necklace and his jersey . I'm in love <3
I finally got my package ! I'm so happy !
His letter, his busuk, his picture, his name tag, his proposal necklace and his jersey . I'm in love <3
20120912
Oovoo Time Part 1
I'm currently on a video call with Heuston right now and i took some pictures with him while I'm holding my DSLR . Lol , Picture time i guess :)
Oh and this is for me to keep . I'm in love with this one <3
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20120911
Neckline
Somehow i admire my neckline . I like boys with em better of course. One of my favorite things i want from a boy, le sexy neckline . It makes me go higher than the empire states. Not sure why but it's nice to see a shape from the neck. Don't you think so too ? hmm :)
Package Pushed over
Sadly... i got the paper that has been posted on my mailbox saying that it reached here in the morning.. I knew it was impossible for me to have it by today. All i could say is that i was let down with . I shouldn't have expected it so highly. I was so depressed that i sounded stupid on the phone with him. He got the package already so i shouldn't let him hear me cry because i didn't . My dad doesn't even want to take the package yet . He only wants to take it when he's free and it'll be on Saturday, my bet.
I'm not in the mood for any fun . I'm just going to lie around in my house and do nothing .
I'm not in the mood for any fun . I'm just going to lie around in my house and do nothing .
Awaiting Package
Assalamualaikum,
So it seems that i'll be getting my package from him very soon. Hopefully it arrives at the right address or i'll seriously cry myself a river for it. He told me it'll reach in approximately 4 pm so whatever it is, I'm going to stay downstairs and wait for the house bell to ring. I just hope the postman would be here in the afternoon. It's sad if it were to be in the morning and that no one is home to receive it . Gosh, i'm so excited and worried at the same time. Sigh... patience .
So it seems that i'll be getting my package from him very soon. Hopefully it arrives at the right address or i'll seriously cry myself a river for it. He told me it'll reach in approximately 4 pm so whatever it is, I'm going to stay downstairs and wait for the house bell to ring. I just hope the postman would be here in the afternoon. It's sad if it were to be in the morning and that no one is home to receive it . Gosh, i'm so excited and worried at the same time. Sigh... patience .
20120907
The package
It was a last minute plan that I told my brother that I wanted to send my busuk pillow, my jersey and my letter to Johor since I made a plan with Heuston to exchange our bolster . I didn't notice that my brother agreed with it that I had to run upstairs to my room after I bought all my stationaries at Taipan . Everything was in a rush. I raced downstairs with a paper and a red envelope that I asked him to picked. My hands was tired from the speed writing that I just SIMPLY write whatever I felt at that moment in it . I felt so messed up and after it was done, I quickly ran up again, took all the things that I wanted to send and ran down outside to the car . I ran all over Giant to search for the wrapper especially made to send packages and so on . Got a wasted box that has no good holes and I'm hoping, nothing is falling out .
We asked someone to wrap it for us and that i wasted minutes for it to get it done . I had to pick up my sister and my dad at that time and well, I just screwed everything and went to the post office . My brother told me where to write and I just write it . It was funny how I accidentally put my initials on the "penerima" signature . I knew I was at the wrong sign and that I scolded my brother for my carelessness . Everything was to be my first time . I haven't waste so much money for someone before and he was to be the first . It's more like a gift and that those waste was worth it... If it sends though. I had to pay RM 47.70 for the package since it was big even though I only have 3 items and not that heavy things . Sadly, and alhamdulillah I saved my money for this . I just hope it reaches to the destination I wanted to send . I'm just afraid of it will fall out due to the hole if someone poked it or whatsoever . Today will be the first night without my busuk pillow and I hope, some other bolsters would keep me company and that my package arrives safely. I'll miss you :(
We asked someone to wrap it for us and that i wasted minutes for it to get it done . I had to pick up my sister and my dad at that time and well, I just screwed everything and went to the post office . My brother told me where to write and I just write it . It was funny how I accidentally put my initials on the "penerima" signature . I knew I was at the wrong sign and that I scolded my brother for my carelessness . Everything was to be my first time . I haven't waste so much money for someone before and he was to be the first . It's more like a gift and that those waste was worth it... If it sends though. I had to pay RM 47.70 for the package since it was big even though I only have 3 items and not that heavy things . Sadly, and alhamdulillah I saved my money for this . I just hope it reaches to the destination I wanted to send . I'm just afraid of it will fall out due to the hole if someone poked it or whatsoever . Today will be the first night without my busuk pillow and I hope, some other bolsters would keep me company and that my package arrives safely. I'll miss you :(
September
Assalamualaikum,
Gosh, it's been awhile since I last blog and right now I'm blogging because my boyfriend asked me to so I'm kinda uninspired to write right now . I'll just talk about the month then .
So far, September hasn't been a bad month for me, YET . I'm not sure because maybe things might go haywired soon . I don't believe that happiness will hold on to someone for long since sadness would come and go . I would probably think that I would overcome these situations with further will to go forward .
Hope is there if I am to believe that I could do things even without a hand in need . I guess that's it . Till then :)
Gosh, it's been awhile since I last blog and right now I'm blogging because my boyfriend asked me to so I'm kinda uninspired to write right now . I'll just talk about the month then .
So far, September hasn't been a bad month for me, YET . I'm not sure because maybe things might go haywired soon . I don't believe that happiness will hold on to someone for long since sadness would come and go . I would probably think that I would overcome these situations with further will to go forward .
Hope is there if I am to believe that I could do things even without a hand in need . I guess that's it . Till then :)
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