I didn't receive anything from him today, I guess it was meant to happen. It'll go on till tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow right? I mean right now, it's where we should sail apart and forget about us but i don't know. I don't want things to change. Right now, there are guys chasing me and i act like nothing happen so they wouldn't ask me out. I'm not saying that i'm this type of girl who would be proud that there are still guys showing up to me but truth is i don't care. I only have eyes for one guy and it's not wrong for me to stick to it and even if he doesn't care i exist, waiting for him to realize is what i do best. Yea i know, WAITING SUCKS. My friends, they were like, "SARAH, that's a waste of time. There are million of guys looking for you and you're lucky that they are still there, in front of you door, waiting for you too." I can't deny it because it's true so i sat in my room thinking so hard while tweeting like a boss like nothing happen.
In the morning after i woke up like this sleeping beauty waiting for a prince charming to come rescue me from this cruel world..... okay no hahah , so i met this guy i call a kid :P name Adam Ariff. He's nice :) just like a KID xD lol ok, i'm just messing around. We just met today on twitter and yeah, we actually became this close friends. How awesome is that? lol ok no. Though it's funny how he should be calling me kakak kaaaaan? :P but no, he kan dah besar, 14 years old. Matang la tu. nak sangat lesen hahah . SO yea, he practically made my day from being lonely. I'm happy. For the people who thinks i'm actually targeting him, no, i'm not. I want the people to look at the world about what they are missing rather than being with a girl like me because they need it more than i do :) I'm trying to clear misunderstanding and no, my ex didn't cheat on me, i was actually afraid of being cheated one day. It's a fear i got from one of my 10 ex's. I don't want to tell what happen so i hope you readers can flashback my memory and make your own story out of it, make it like my life being untold and people recovering those memories.
People say that I'm a strong girl, still standing with boy's after one by one breaking my heart but i say, i'm still weak. Doubting people when i don't know and giving up half way. I'm trying to change that though. They wanted me to make my own decision, some were asking me to stop this stupid act, acting like i'm strong and all but the truth is, i wasn't acting, i was being considerate. What if my partner doesn't want us to stop in the first place? What if he still wants me but i pushed him away? It'll be a mistake right? but i have my reasons so i'll put it through somehow. I wanted my high school love to last, maybe until marriage but that wouldn't go on because i know my partner would have gone tired of me someday.
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